9 Weeks Ago Today!

So 9 weeks ago I had my WLS. Holy wow ~ where has the time gone?

Healthy Lifestyle:
I still struggle with food, and have not managed to get past the soft / pureed foods stage. This is one of they many reasons I will be so happy in a few weeks, once I start working from home because I will be able to fully focus on my weird eating needs without having an office look on too.

House News:
R finished signing all the docs on the house tonight, and escrow closes tomorrow. I'll be going down on Saturday to wait on dryer and fridge delivery, while the boys start ferrying things from R's old place into the new place.

Vegas News:
My dress came last week and today I had an appt with the alterer to get the bust and waist taken in. Once she had me all pinned in I could not believe the difference! Holy moly do I look curvy and svelte! I can't wait to dress up for R and be the belle of the ball.

PS. Have you seen my ticker over there ----> I'm down 56 lbs!

Depressing

I shouldn't be depressed. Today was official weigh in day and I was down 4 lbs since last Tuesday.

However, I went mall walking with my friend tonight and we had to stop at LB because they were having a clearance sale. So I grabbed a few things to try on, and that is where it all fell apart.

I'm still not in the next size down. Or I'm definately the wrong shape for the next size down. I tried on NEXT SIZE DOWN pants and while they were baggy in the butt and thighs I still couldn't get those mofo's to come within an inch of buttoning.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Yes I know, I shouldn't pout, and I should look at the long term, but holy moly. 50 lbs less ought to mean I can button the jeans in the next smaller size. (Please don't tell my I was cramming my ass into jeans that were too small).

Progress

I have not thrown up once since Tuesday. It's a world record. I bought more liquid vits, it's definately way easier to swallow and cringe, than to chew and cringe.

Started my period today as well, it came with a lovely period pimple. I hope this means it will be a normal period and last longer than one day.

Finally told the roomie that we are moving out, he said it was good because he was thinking of taking a job offer out of state. See, things really do happen the way they ought to. He's also going to be gone pretty much all of next month, so I can pack and clean the house without anyone hovering. That will be nice.

It's The Weekend

Last weekend R came up, the three of us went up to the Farmer's Market and out to see the new Harry Potter movie. I ended up shortly there after with some sort of stomach bug and was pretty much hanging my head in the toilet for the rest of the weekend (yes peeps, I am a fine date!).

This week has been crazy hectic at work. Work and I have come to a working from home agreement and everything is settled, I spent Friday in interviews looking for someone to take over my more mundane tasks and play gopher to me, and out of 5 candidates I have one (1!) maybe. We are running the ad again this weekend to see if we get some better applicants.

The house is slowly (very slowly) getting packed up. The rescue mission was here yesterday to pick up a ton of donations. That felt good.

Now we are getting ready to head to R's this weekend. One last weekend together before we hunker down and finish getting our respective houses in gear and combined into one. Scary but exciting!

I Exercised Today

So... since I'm over the 6 weeks my surgeon makes you wait to start exercising... I attempted a workout.

I did about 10 minutes of Leslie Sansone's Walk Away The Pounds (and then I was pooped), and did 1/2 of the strength training exercises spark had laid out for me (I will admit that with my recent days of vomiting up everything I eat, I didn't bother with any of the stomach/core exercises).

Damn if I don't feel good about myself, even if it was only 20 minutes.

Work today was good, we finally settled on the plan that will work best for my working from home once I move next month.

So I officially am moving in with the honey one month from today (8/18), and I'm slowly weeding through everything in the house. I have a ton of stuff set adside for the rescue mission to come pick up on friday, I've thrown a ton of CRAP away. Now I can't figure why there is still so much stuff left over.

Gabe's room is all sorted through and ready to go. So is the living room, so now it's my bedroom and the kitchen left. Holy moly, thank goodness I have a whole month!

Not As Bad As I Thought

Today was my one month post op visit to the Nutrionist. Well, I was a couple of weeks late.

Anyway, I'm not doing quite as bad as I had thought, and she gave me some more things to try. We revised my protein goal downward again since I'm having some problems with it. Now I'm at 50. Get 50 in no matter what she says. Not going to happen today though... agh I suck.

I'm so excited that tomorrow is Friday!! R is going to be here for the weekend, we've got a shopping trip planned to the big nutrition store to get some things, then we are going to have a family movie-thon and watch a few of the Harry Potter movies before seeing the new release next weekend (we don't want to go this weekend way too crowded).

Already dreading tomorrow

Tomorrow I meet with the nutritionist. I should be thrilled, since theoretically she is supposed to help me overcome my issues...

But I don't like her. She is roughly a 40 year old cheerleader. I can't understand why she works out of the office of a bariatric surgeon because on my initial consult with her she told me she just didn't get "head hunger".

WTF is there to get? You see something delicious, you aren't hungry, you eat it anyway. Apparently she has never had a craving for some chocolate, cheesecake, or egg rolls.

Have I mentioned she works out of my surgeons office? So tomorrow I go in. I'm expecting a lecture about my lack of protein... but after that is over I'm hoping she will give me some suggestions. I have huge texture issues. I can do a shake a day for a couple days, but then on the 3rd day it will hit my mouth and I immediately gag on it. I need something I can manage all the time.

I've recently started adding tofu back into my diet, but will need to talk to her about that as well, since soy products mess with my thyroid hormone therapy. LOL nothing is as easy as I think it is going to be, but that is ok. I'm going there tomorrow to learn, and even if she hates me and doesn't understand me, I'm going to make her teach me. I will come out of that office with better suggestions.

The one good thing is R is going to bring me a case of the one protein bar I actually like to eat. So if I can do one of those a day it's 14g Protein, but I think I can manage to eat 1.5 as a snack throughout the day and that's an extra 21. Which really would be a huge difference.

10 Steps to Loving Your Body (c) by Pat Ballard

1. Never stand in front of a mirror and think negative thoughts about yourself.

2. Never stand anywhere and think negative thoughts about yourself.

3. Search carefully for your good points and when you have found them, nourish them and build on them and cause them to grow daily.

4. Close your mind to any negative words, thoughts or actions that someone might send your way. Don’t allow negative thoughts into your subconscious.

5. Always conduct yourself in an honorable fashion and don’t allow your mouth to appear larger than your body.

6. Always do your best to look like you care about yourself, as no one respects a slob, no matter what size that slob might be.

7. Learn what your best colors are, what your best hair style is, and what your best clothes style is, and never leave your house without being dressed
accordingly.

8. Always, and without fail, smile and simply say, “Thank you,” when you receive a compliment. Never think or say that the compliment isn’t true.

9. Stop apologizing about your size. Expect everyone to accept you, respect you, and be happy with you just the way you are.

10. But most of all, you have to love yourself. When you love yourself, others will love you and respond to you in the exact manner as you feel about yourself.

Rough Patch

I want to start off by saying that I do NOT regret having this surgery. However, that being said, I am having a very difficult couple of weeks.

I am supposed to have progressed on to trying soft foods that are not pureed, but I'm having a heck of a time with them, and have decided to stay on puree for awhile longer. Though even then, sometimes I must still eat too fast, or not wait long enough to drink and I end up losing some of it.

Weight loss wasn't much this week in comparison to other weeks, however, it's going down and really that is all that matters.

Periods. WTF? It lasted 1.5 days. That can't be right.

I've found some liquid vits that are much more tolerable to me than the chewable bariatric advantage ones. I have to space them out oddly during the day, but I've got the multi vitamin, iron, and calcium liquids from floradix. Within 3 days of taking them I feel like I'm almost back to my pre-op energy level. Such a relief. I was pretty sure I was going to remain a walking zombie the rest of my life.

4th of July

Today I ended up going to work for a little while, then went over to a friends for a bbq get together.

There were lots of people there... and lots of food. Since I am newly into soft foods (still preferring pureed to having a grouchy pouch) I didn't bother with anything other than eating the middle out of one deviled egg. But as I sat there looking at all that food I was a bit nostalgic for the old days where you could indulge in the yummy things.

I know that one day I will be able to eat most of that stuff (the grilled shrimp kabobs looked to be worth dying for), and it will be fine, but I wonder when I will be able to get around this "head hunger". (I don't want it, I'm not hungry, I can't have it; but man it looks GOOD!)

Hmmmm

This weekend the BF and I went to see the new Die Hard movie. Do yourself a favor, go watch it, I haven't been this entertained in a long time. Those action scenes had me clenching up in my seat they were so good.

Today the BF put in the official offer on the condo. So we should know shortly whether or not I can dream about combining our 2 households into a new place, or into the current place. I'm hoping for new since we can paint it anyway we like. Anyway, if it doesn't work out we are just going to give up on Cali and search out the perfect place to move to in a year or so.... and that would be just fine too really.

This weekend we went to a giant nutrition / healthfood store, and I was able to find many different protein drinks to try out, along with some protein bars that I've been able to nibble through. So the protein wagon is starting up again. Hurrah, hurrah, hurrah!